Long time no see, nothing much happening. Boring life as always boring yep I'm bored.

I never felt my heart beat the is truth that is cause I felt loney a lot and now , feels weird
I feel it now cause it seems weird what happend at first. First weird thing that my Dad came back from Russia in Moscow to sing Opera and he came telling that I'm going have a boyfriend in Russia I'm like D: What?... He told me that I should have while at first he said No I will NEVER have a boyfriend. All I know that he's blond, green or blue eyes, and tall, I'm short 5'3in :< I hate being called shortstuff and shorty I wish I was a bit taller at least 1 or 2 inch taller The worst part my Dad wants me to MAYBE marry him I thought I died right there. I been very busy lately with school and ballet I don't sleep until 3am or more, too much thinking I been changing my moods no it's not that time of the month trying to figure this life out I guess since there so much crap going on. I feel isolated around everyone been asking that I look tired and I pay no attention to that for some unknown reason I don't know why I feel lonely and want to feel it or I'm not the same person. Maybe it's cause of the pills I been taking...

Yay! it's my birthday 15 I'm getting old for this!

I'm very happy cause I found my love which is ballet I never knew this until now I finally know that I don't need a boyfriend ,I got something more special which is my love for ballet I decide what I want to be when I grow up. ...Ballet, the love, passion, your feelings blending with the music into another place, wonderful memories of friends and family all the things you love in every single movement and step. Grace of everything sad or happy I love it no matter what I'm still a ballerina with many lovely friends and family, much more waiting ahead which will happen soon. School's almost over and whole summer ballet every single week haha I never felt this way!



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Cheetos are good... Why is it the deadliest sin to love desired too. Hope is only an illusion. Sorry I'm kinda crushed right now it will go away in a few days or so. It happen on the 14 curse that day, I never wanted to fall in love seems I got stabbed by one of his arrows how unlucky of me. I send Micthel a letter foe he can give me advice, he wrote it's okay to be in love. No it's not okay I can't sleep, I can only eat cheetos cause there cheesy. I only have 4 or 3 years to go for I can get rid of this feeling right now seems I can't... I just can't wait to go to school, even if I hate that teacher god she sounds like a robot and acts like one too. :<



I'm gonna eat some cheetos nao. :<

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